And You Thought I had it All Together by Pablo Giacopelli
By Pablo Giacopelli
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By Pablo Giacopelli
OFFICIAL REAL, RAW, AND UNCENSORED DISCLOSURE TO THE WORLD
Many ask and I am sure even many more wonder what I mean when I say that I long to be raw, real, and uncensored to God and the rest of us.
Well before I tackle this let me tell you that the reason I have decided to share this is because I have noticed that there seems to still be this notion and false belief that somehow those of us that write and share our discoveries through books have it altogether and have somehow reached some sort of utopia that only the few and privilege can.
Please let me begin by telling you that as far as I am concerned this is not true at all and in fact it is because it is quite the opposite that I am able to share and appreciate what others maybe also struggle with. You see the fact is that I have struggled, and still do at times, with such deep darkness in my life that it has enabled me to better glance and appreciate how freeing Godâ€™s light is when I see it. The deep wars with insecurity and doubt that I often face are the reason that helps me to tell you with some license how comforting and still this place within you truly is when you allow Jesus to reconnect you to it as he shows you the way back to where it all started (His Kingdom). Or maybe it is the dryness and solace that my futile attempts to get it right have delivered into my life, why my eyes have been opened to be able to grasp, if even for a moment, how freeing and awesome his unconditional love and grace truly are. Or maybe it is the gallons that I have drunk from the cup of lust, that robbed me of the very intimacy they promised at first, why I can savor and experience and tell you that what God extends to all of us is an ever filling and fulfilling intimacy like no other.
And so you see it would not be real if I tried to hide it behind the mask of my brilliant and illusional performance. It would not be raw if I attempted to cook it in the simmering oil of my false pretenses. And it would most certainly not be uncensored if I tried to censored it behind the false facade of my own salvation plan and self-righteousness.
Today make no mistake. The only reason our true self is complete, perfect, and at peace is because God is part of it and not because we are somehow self sufficient and amazing on our own right. And the only way we will have any chance of experiencing it is by embracing the whole of ourselves which includes all those parts of us that are not pretty, are dirty, broken, shameful, and down right sinful a.k.a. our false self.
Any other way or anything else are lies told by a flawed system called religion.
PS - I feel so strongly about this that I wrote a book about it called The Modern Fig Leaf. I humbly invite you to check it out by clicking here.
So often in life we strive and are so consumed with figuring God out that our urgency and anxiety actually causes us to miss him. For example over the years I have spent many quiet times in the mornings doing anything and everything but being quiet. During these times my prayers have been noble and centered on the usual requests for things and ways in which I wanted God to show up and show me, yet all I heard was silence. For some years now I have chosen to spend more of my time silent. You see, remaining quiet has helped me to center myself and be present and most importantly aware of what he wants to do with and in me on any given moment. It has helped me to relax my perspective and shift my attention to begin to understand which is the language that God uses most of the time he speaks to us.
The Israelites left Egypt where they were slaves for several hundred years. As they came out to the desert God waited for them longing to woo them much the same way that a man woos a woman during courtship. Things unfortunately started to go South very quickly when the Israelites did what most of us normally do which is to put the face of Pharaoh (who/what we live to please) over the face of God. This action implants in us an erroneous view of God which means that we try to relate with him much the same way we did/do with the one who has wounded us the most. In their case, Pharaoh, with whom they knew no relationship was possible apart from one that revolved around hard labor. He gave them their marching orders and they performed them. As long as they did this all was well and they were allowed to survive.
Not long ago I sat listening to someone speak about their relationship with God and the way He involved himself in this persons life. As I sat there I saw the face of yet another individual light up when he began to explain to me how God paid him from time to time, in an amazing way, a visit in his life. Inevitably every time I hear something like this I am led to ask the person where was God all those other times when he was supposedly not visiting them in an amazing way? And believe me that while I understand what people mean I see this picture as being the same as someone saying that within their marriage the only time they are aware of their partner is when they are having sex with them.